Im 15 today.
Its a wierd thing to say deffinetely. You know I thought when this day came I would be "different" in some way shape or form. WELL NOPE, that didnt happen.
Im getting older guys, im a litter scurred. But there isnt much I can do. I sort of expected more of this day. I'll take what I can get though definitely. My mom did have to work today and that was rather upsetting, but I got through it. Another thing that was a damper on my day was that there was this car accident in Santee today, we passed the wreckage, it was rather insane to look at. It makes me wonder about things I dont want to think about.
Gah to many odd thoughts on a day I should have enjoyed more. Its coming to a close soon, so whateves.
Theres always next year?
Happy birthday to me :)
I feel like ranting about those three treacherous words.I love you, i love you i love you i love you i love you I LOVE YOU ILY I LOVE YOU I FUCKING LOVE YOU.
It seems like now those three words just aren't as important as they used to be. Like when someone utters those words to another it doesn't have the impact it really should.
I think saying these precious words is pretty sacred, and should only be said when you completely mean them. I know I have fallen to the craze of doing so and thats why Im gonna stop, and say it to those who truly in my mind deserve it.
Anyways enough of that. I started school on tuesday, its pretty great I love my classes :D I switched out of honors chemistry because I fail. But Im great with my classes now. I really excited to branch out and make new friends, hopefully.
I said something funny today, but i forgot :|
I think this is gonna be my thing from now on ^^, posting a picture with every blog. It could be fun and Im sure I could get creative with the pictures. I guess this will be like my own little signature with them. No matter how nappy, or nasty I look I will post a picture with each blog.
It surprises me enourmasly when people my age, now were talking about a 14-16 age demographic, handle things as if they were a child of 10. I mean come on how hard is it to look at the situation maturely and handle it maturely. Instead they choose the catty route and exchange harsh words and make a fool of themselves,
then decide the most sensible solution is to stop being friends. All Im saying is that you could have handled the situation better rather than freak out and get offended. Yes it wasn't their place to speak and make such a comment, but you handled it just as idiotically. I dare you to be the bigger person.
Put them together and you get classy. Thats me and Rebecca for sure, a pair of two classy kids who go better together then peanut butter and jelly. Today we decided to do an outreach, what I mean by this is take our class and bestow the magic upon someone we believe needs a bit of mentoring in the ways of class, lol. So we took Michael, Rebecca's little brother to go get a new classy outfit for school. It didnt take us long to find something but hes afraid to wear it to school because no one wears skinny jeans there.
WHATEVES.
Amanda was supposed to join us today but she got in a fight with Trinity and said she didnt feel like going out. This sort of upset me, I dont think she should let her ruin her day. I mean these idiotic fights happen all the time and then they make only for it to happen again the next week. Personally, thats some little kid bullshit. Were going to be sophomores for christ sake, grow up.
Breathe Carolina is coming fucking October 7th
ITS A FUCKING THURSDAY, aint that some shit?
Im gonna try my best to go anyways. Hopefully it wont end up like last time where Tia was trampled and Sydne fainted afterwards.
My bff got a girlfriend and Im excited for her, this happiness for her has been long overdue. At the beginning I had feeling of replacement and what not and Im not gonna lie I still do. But hey who am I to stand in the way of them. Its okay with me so whateves :) This gives me a chance to grow closer to all of my other friends(amanda) that I sort of lost touch with.
So a win win? lol
84 degrees and its midnight, DO NOT WANT.
My mind just went blank.
Good day today though :)
Its hard for me to think into the future without instilling fear into myself. Knowing that Im getting older, gaining more responsibility, and having simply "grow up" scares me. In school they're always telling us to plan and head and think of the future, but why? It only makes me panic and fear whats to come. I guess only time will tell if I'll be ready. I honestly thought the world would explode before I ever hit
high school and here I am an upcoming sophomore.
Beyond that, Im excited to be getting back into the routine of school. Im anxious to see everyone and start to learn piano. You know I will be the next Beethoven, or atleast make the effort.
Recently Ive been thinking about money and how I am pretty happy with what I have. Although I think things could be better with "spending" money, Im perfectly happy with being broke. There are things here and there I wish I could afford but what is life without working for something you want? I dont see any use if having everthing handed to you. So dare I say Im excited to get a job when I am at an actual age where someone will hire me? Possibly.
I dont know what to say really.
Just blegh.
I fell again.
Help me up.
