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Memorial Day is today.

I was just watching Scrubs and the episode was about a man facing death. It was sort of hard for me to watch because me, myself am afraid of death. I've always tried to avoid the thought of it because a weird feeling comes over me. I guess thats why I still somewhat have my faith. I dont tell my friend about that much, my faith I mean, its mostly because today religion is looked as something bad like a reason to look down upon someone.

My parents came home last night and they havent missed a beat. Things are back to normal and I love it. Schools almost over which will throw things out of whack but then there is summer school. Ive come to terms that Im not gonna a job this summer, it might be fromt he lack of trying. Hahha.

Goodnight.

Struttin' my feet.

Its late right now, and I cant seem to find a comfortable spot to fall asleep.

Last night I had my party and it was pretty amazing. It started out Devin, Natalie and I. We had a little bonding time on my balcony. I think about it and it makes me smile. Then Rebecca, Alyssa, and Jay got here and we played 'I have never' with drinks. It brought on so many laughs, I really cant remember the last time I've laughed so much in one night. Tia didnt arrive till like forever later, in my opinion she missed out on some good times.

The later it got the crazier things got. Everyone ended up making out with everyone that night, it was pretty ridiculous. I got the shit scarred out of me because Devin got really wasted and started puking. We got him situated though and checked on him like every 5 minutes. Not everything that night was okay with me, like some things that went on with Tia and just me letting loose and being a hoe. Definitely not cool in my book. Although I had a good time I do have some regrets. Except for when I finally got fed up with this kids shit and told him off. He is no longer speaking to me, and frankly I could care less.

My parents are leaving Mexico later today, I say later today because technically its Sunday. Im really excited for them to get here. This house needs some order restored.

Yeah I Bet.

Its wednsday so that means my parents have been gone for 5 days now. I sure do miss them. I guess it really takes them to be gone for me to appreciate them. Its really quiet and lonely around the house. There isnt the constant movement there used to be, and my parents arent always yelling at us to pick up and stuff.

The starving part isnt happening, thank god. Ive cooked all the meals since my parents have been gone. I feel like Im taking care of my siblings when it should be them taking care of me because Im the youngest. Oh well, I love them anyways.

This week has been a pretty great week, Ive had some "fun" that'd I'd rather not go into detail about but its gonna continue this friday because Im gonna have a little kickback with a few friends.

Summer is sooo close.
D:

Around the World, Around the World

Tomorrow Friday and I couldnt be more excited. There's two reasons for such excitement; one being that my parents are leaving for a whole week!, and another being im going to go to a party with Tia tomorrow!

Im a little worried about the whole parents gone for a week thing though. My brother isnt really much of a cook and he can barely take care of himself. Another thing Im worried about is the fights, my sibling dont tend to get along well with one another. I feel as if Im going to be the one taking care of them instead of them taking care of me.

Summer is coming faster and faster, I really want to get a summer job. Its not really going well but Im hopefull.

:)

Mommy, I love you.

As of almost an hour ago its mother's day. Mother's Day is sort of an emtional holiday because my mom gets emotional when we do stuff for her and then it leads to all of us becoming emotional. Also because my pastor always does sermons on how you should value your mother and all that on mother's day and it always makes me cry. Softyyy.

I love my mom, I love everything shes done for me. She never gave up on this family when she easily could have walked out a few years ago when things got rough. Shes sacrificed so much for me and this family. I consider her a supermom because of the things she does on a daily basis. What I'd do without her is beyond me.

So today(Saturday) I went to a call back with Tia at Barbizon. It was pretty intense, I got so nervous for Tia. Once she got up there though it all went away. Im so proud of her and I wish her the best.

I hate when Natalie reads my blogs out loud in tech class, I want to punch her in the face when she does so. Fair warning Natalie.

I want a summer job really bad, so I can be more independent and start saving up for something I really want. What that might be is still unknown to me but when I do I want the money for it. Its going to be alot with summer school and all, but Im sure I can manage...hopefully.

h to the izz-o, v to the izz-a

I really enjoy when songs that you have completely forgotten about come on and you just cant help but dance. Every time that happens to me its like i re-live the feelings I felt when I heard that song, its a weird feeling.

I know I talk about this alot but I wonder why I get so emotional during TV shows. I kind of think of myself like May from The Secret Life of Bees, haha. It may not make sense to you but it does to me. I guess its because when I see sad parts in movies, TV shows, etc. I put myself in the shoes of whoever this misfortune is happening to. I guess also its because I've been through some misfortune myself and seeing them makes me think about them and re-live the fear, and pain I felt in my misfortune.Anyways enough of that.

Today in geography we got the assignment of writing a story of what I believe it would be like in the day of the life of someone living in a favela. I'm really excited about writing it and I sort of think I may be taking it way to seriously, but I'm pumped and cant wait to start. Lets just hope I don't procrastinate horribly.

School is coming closer and closer to an end. Being that school is coming to and end makes me face the reality of how fast time passes. It seems as just yesterday I was walking onto Grossmonts campus for the first time scared out of my mind.

The series finally of Scrubs is tonight. I missed this whole season D:<
Its odd for me when a show ends because I think of the characters as real people and as if they still live on but the show doesn't air anymore. I know it probably doesn't make any sense, but oh well.

Its the same thing.

Its been proven that most people have heart attacks on Mondays because of the stress of the oncoming week. The other week in my biology class we watched a video on heart attacks. I'm intrigued by the thought of a "attack" on your heart being brought on by a horrible array of perfect conditions. I just hope that one day I don't fall victim to a heart attack.

So as you may know if you read my previous post, I cut my hair. I was really nervous this morning to go to school and have everyone see my hair. To my surprise everyone generally liked it. Either that or they just all tried to make me feel good about it, haha. In all honesty this morning I wasn't feeling to good about my haircut. Its starting to grow on my everyday. I told my friend Tia today that I thought I looked like a really scrubby dyke, but dare I say I think I look cute.


Tomorrow I dont have to wake up early. I need some new pants, for some reason my crotch really enjoys eating away at my pants. :/

Oh and by the way, this is pretty much no different than yours.

Haircut Sunday.

I followed through with it and cut my hair today. There isnt much to say about the way it looks. I hate the question "how short is it?" because I dont know how to describe the length of hair. I feel like if I actually tried their mental image would be way off.

I saw Marley & Me with Kim today. I cried, which only further proves my point that I am a big softy when it comes to movies and television. I dont know why I get so emotional so easily. Its starting to become a problem though.

My parents are going on vacation in 12 days. Im going to left alone with my sister and my older brother, this is gonna be interesting. I want to just go and stay with Amanda while they're gone.

I already miss my hair.
Todays just not my day.

Brownies on a Saturday.

Tia spent the night last night, woke up this morning with a black bear in my living room. Later in the afternoon I got to see Amanda, we made brownies. Words can not describe how delicious those brownies were. I ate them with mint chocolate chip ice cream. NUFF SAID.

The school year is coming to an end soon. Im sort of terrified, it seems like the years are going by quicker and quicker. I dont like time going past me so quick. It barely gives me time to enjoy things. It seems as if 2009 started yesterday and its already May.

Im cutting my hair tomorrow. I have no idea what the hell im going to do with it, but im cutting it for sure. Im excited, sorta.

Kim i love you :)

CHOPPIN' SHIT.

For the first time today I woke up without being tired. Block scheduling is still going on at school because of state testing so I got to sleep in till 8:00. I had to walk to school today, that was sort of relaxing.

School was pretty boring. We watched this movie called Favela Rising, that was an intense movie. Its about these slums in Rio De Janiero which is in brazil and the violence and drug trafficking goes on in them. I almost got emotional in some parts, haha. I do think I am a pussy when it comes to movies. It ended nicely so I liked the movie very much.

It was supposed to be movie night tonight with Natalie but the movie didnt finish downloading so fail. Tomorrow Im going to make brownies with Amanda, oh yeah and Im chopping off my hair this weekend. Im not really sure what it is that I am going to do with it but I just want it cut.

Me and Tia are friends again.
:)