Heat in the night.

84 degrees and its midnight, DO NOT WANT.

My mind just went blank.
Good day today though :)

Afraid of what?

Its hard for me to think into the future without instilling fear into myself. Knowing that Im getting older, gaining more responsibility, and having simply "grow up" scares me. In school they're always telling us to plan and head and think of the future, but why? It only makes me panic and fear whats to come. I guess only time will tell if I'll be ready. I honestly thought the world would explode before I ever hit
high school and here I am an upcoming sophomore.

Beyond that, Im excited to be getting back into the routine of school. Im anxious to see everyone and start to learn piano. You know I will be the next Beethoven, or atleast make the effort.

Recently Ive been thinking about money and how I am pretty happy with what I have. Although I think things could be better with "spending" money, Im perfectly happy with being broke. There are things here and there I wish I could afford but what is life without working for something you want? I dont see any use if having everthing handed to you. So dare I say Im excited to get a job when I am at an actual age where someone will hire me? Possibly.

Slap to the face

I dont know what to say really.
Just blegh.

I fell again.
Help me up.

Finally

My best friend is back in town and I am now complete. My moms been a real bitch today. We got to go to the beach anyways but not after a few minutes of intense stare downs, aggressive words and slaps.

I had a great time at the beach with Tia, we got dragged out in rip currents and had to be saved twice. I loled afterwards, we are so ridiculous.
My mom continues to be a royal asshole supreme.

I hope she doesnt shit on my tomorrow.