Heat in the night.

84 degrees and its midnight, DO NOT WANT.

My mind just went blank.
Good day today though :)

Afraid of what?

Its hard for me to think into the future without instilling fear into myself. Knowing that Im getting older, gaining more responsibility, and having simply "grow up" scares me. In school they're always telling us to plan and head and think of the future, but why? It only makes me panic and fear whats to come. I guess only time will tell if I'll be ready. I honestly thought the world would explode before I ever hit
high school and here I am an upcoming sophomore.

Beyond that, Im excited to be getting back into the routine of school. Im anxious to see everyone and start to learn piano. You know I will be the next Beethoven, or atleast make the effort.

Recently Ive been thinking about money and how I am pretty happy with what I have. Although I think things could be better with "spending" money, Im perfectly happy with being broke. There are things here and there I wish I could afford but what is life without working for something you want? I dont see any use if having everthing handed to you. So dare I say Im excited to get a job when I am at an actual age where someone will hire me? Possibly.

Slap to the face

I dont know what to say really.
Just blegh.

I fell again.
Help me up.

Finally

My best friend is back in town and I am now complete. My moms been a real bitch today. We got to go to the beach anyways but not after a few minutes of intense stare downs, aggressive words and slaps.

I had a great time at the beach with Tia, we got dragged out in rip currents and had to be saved twice. I loled afterwards, we are so ridiculous.
My mom continues to be a royal asshole supreme.

I hope she doesnt shit on my tomorrow.

teaspoon!

I hate cleaning the carpet, especially with the ancient machine that my parents call a steam cleaner. I dont think I did it right but they seem to say I did a fine job. I better get some shoes for this hard labor. I want to get me some vans that I saw on the internets. Have you ever seen something and like NEED to have it. Yeah well those shoes are going to be mine. They're an affordable price so I dont see why we cant make it a reality.

Today I went to Kim's and we pretty much had a cooking bonanza. I had a nibble of everything we made, and it was delicious. I think we are Food Network material for sure. We could call our show Kim & Andrew's delicious deserts and other amazing treats. I could see us get as big as Paula Dean, so she better watch out.

I got the pictures from the photo shoot with Devin. I worked it, you know.
hahhaha
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Wednesday's mending

Today was a good day, although not over, id be satisfied with it right now it it did. I hungout with my friend Michele. I havent seen her in a while, we sort of fell out of touch last summer. I've missed her greatly and Im glad we took today and finally went through with our plans. We talked about many things and caught up on everything. I hope we become better friends like we used too. I could really use a friend like her, just someone who is happy and sort of carefree.

I broke my phone at Rebeccas party sunday night. I was uhm in a delusional state to say the least and I dropped my phone in the toilet. I tried that trick when you put your phone in a bowl of rice over night. Well it worked for the most part. My phone functions now, I just dont get service. So failllll.

I need to file a claim to get a new one.
I WANT THE FUCKING PALM PRE.

A smile for you.

I dont know what happened today, but it was for the best. I began to think about somethings that are bothering me and I came to the realization that I dont need be letting these things bother me. Most of these things are bothering me because of me. I have lately turned into an asshole, and I can see that.

In my previous blog I talked about wanting to rid myself of bad "things" and what not. I still want to do that but take a different approach to it. I want to rid myself of my bad attitude, well not so much my bad attitude but the attitude I have towards certain people and things.

Lately Ive been pushing my own best friend away. Ive been a dick to her and lots of other people.

Im gonna be a better person, I am gonna be happy.
I do always have a smile on my face but this time its gonna be a smile with a reason behind it.
Things are gonna change.